‘You must be a nightmare to live with.’ 

I blink at the woman next to me, thinking a) I beg your pardon? and b) how the hell did you know that? 

It takes me a moment, fighting through feverish memory-resets and the ceramic echoing-ringing-ears of this flu-ish bug, to remember we were halfway through talking about this flu-ish bug, the same one that she had had, the one that hangs around for two weeks, she tells me. She was, she says. I totally am, I think. I laugh harder than I have in days, blushing at how truly nightmarish I am at the moment, and hoping desperately that this laughter doesn’t tip me over the edge into actual vomiting because I have to come here every week for at least two more months, or whenever the older two kids can swim without armbands, whichever comes first. 

I’ve been thinking recently about this piece on Nora Ephron’s way of befriending people, and have been kicking myself for still not having my business cards made, months after I’d had them designed. The number of times I’ve wanted to platonically ask someone out, and lacked the props, in both senses of the word. 

But this dizziness, this nausea, this need to grind my teeth together so I don’t fall forwards from the narrow bench while we watch the children swim back and forth together, turns out is all I needed to swallow my self-consciousness. Right at the start of the lesson I start talking to this woman - who, let’s face it, next to my sticking-up hair (napped next to the baby) and my smudged eyeliner (sweats) and my face like a haunted bag of tiling grout, is waaaaay out of my friendship league today - and end up wishing again that I’d got my business cards printed up already, because, to lie down with a passive-aggressive groan and a Berocca-stained old blanket in Patrick Bateman’s shadow, they might be the most impressive thing about me right now.